third party...

its really amazing how much damage third party can do to an otherwise normal 3 year plus relationship.. Not only was the relationship spoilt... this third party got 2 person totally ruined. I'm lost for words.. we were being tested.. maybe as an assessment by buddha, jeseus... and what not..


We were suppose to be making arrangement for our wedding.. proposal was couple of days ago... a good ring was to arrive 3 weeks later.. but he didn't care.. a failed marriage he had encountered and he want to cause the same to the others.. I don't understand.. I stayed faithful to you just like you expected me to.. is it that difficult to be the same to me? I gave you a freedom that eventually caused me to lose mine..

I ain't angry with you.. serious.. from the bottom my heart.. i ain't angry with you.. just angry with myself for letting this happen. should have nibbed it in the butt when it surfaced.. I was simply too confident of us.. my job causes us that gap..

I forgave you... and please be forgiven.. it ain't right to blame yourself.. relationship is a two way thing.. either one made the wrong decision, both will suffer.. its fair.. to both.. I suffered.. I'm willing.. don't tell me if its worth it.. cause the worth is from the angle of my eyes not yours..

I want to move on with you.. from today on.. but are you willing to move on together with me? In unison, with this bad experience behind us as a personal lesson? We have only one last chance to strike...

I'm a soldier.. I'll fight.. I'm used to 5 days with 10 hours of sleep... I wouldn't lose you.. I can't lose you.. its not because i cannot afford to.. its because its not worth to lose to someone who don't befits you..